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Last Friday, I had a dialogue session with my bosses regarding my pervious year performance. I didn’t performance too well and believe that it probably the worst I have ever done in all these working years. Personally I know its coming as I really did not excel in anything much last year.

Thinking back …. What are my achievements for the past year?

Perhaps numerous tenders that I didn’t really care about and too many that I simply didn’t bother to count. There are days that I felt so hung on the neck that I felt like giving up at 4pm. And also those days that I had simply nothing to do, spring cleaning my crazy workstation and do some technical reading. Yet another year had gone by and how am I suppose to judge if I have spend my time wisely. Was very lucky to have bosses that I can have an open discussion about all doubts and plans. Mostly also to seek for some guidance and advise that I might lack.

First thing on Monday morning, my boss called me for a chat again. Promised to ponder on this issue and propose a development program for myself.

It is about time to set my career goals and move towards it. Still on the technical or management dilemma.

Been feeling grand these days, I am still pushing myself on the KIVs.

• Did a 4km run under 30mins last night and will be considering fulfilling my marathon dream later this year.
• Going for the Class 2A practical lesson tonight. All sight set on the TP test on 12^th Aug 2008.
• The weighting scale is finally moving after my hard work in the gym for the past 2.5 months. Lost 4kg and counting.
• Most of all it is great to love and be loved back.

I am marking this date down. Somehow it was really a rejuvenating day for me. I am renewed and all ready to face the challenges and ready to embrace whatever changes that will be coming at me in near future. In fact I am thrilled and looking forward to some of some prospective changes. Look out for my exciting updates in the coming months.

10 am – Drizzling outside

The day started with some follow up with the doctor at the clinic near my place, I was having this nagging flu and sore throat for the past week. The visit turned out to be quite extraordinary one as I ended up chatting with him and sharing some personal feelings. My conservation with Dr Clement Lai daunted me on how blessed I am at the moment and should treasure whatever that I have. Hey thanks doctor, you are indeed an angel in disguise.

11 am – Rain had stopped but the roads are wet

Finally brought my hurt Xiaotu to Eng Sin Motorshop. Got her broken mirror, headlight and stalling problems fixed. She was given a well deserved scrub and wash up after riding her home. Now she is beaming a little and serving me well.

After thinking about this for so long, I finally enrolled myself for Class 2A riding lessons. Looking forward to complete my lessons and tried to take the TP test on the 12^th August 2008. Let hope it will not be too tedious this time round. But I suppose it will be full of exciting happenings again. May have the urge to ‘argue’ and ‘kill’ some instructors. Ha ha…

3 pm – Sun is out with some overcast

Collected my convocation gown, transcript and misc stuff from NTU. Arranged to meet up with my classmate Doris for a cuppa and some catch up. Sincerely told her about my heartfelt gratitude, for being there for me during the whole course and thus making the whole MSc. experience very comfortable and rewarding. To my surprise, she told me that she felt the same way for me too. Was so glad that I shared these feelings with her and in return found out that I had also made a difference to someone during the course of study. The time and effort spend was really invaluable to my personal growth and knowledge.

5 pm – Cool evening but heavy traffic on the road

A job interview was next; to be very honest I really like my current job. But somehow at the back of my mind I do yearn for challenges and desire changes. Although I think I was not competence enough for the opening but I tried my best and really glad to have the chance to be interviewed. Let see what the outcome will be.

Currently I am motivated and driven to complete all my KIVs. Hey watch out for this dynamic woman. Here I come!